Mind the Engrish

My 2009

As one year fades and the next one dawns upon us, the most logical course of action seems to be to follow the tried and true tradition of summarizing the past year's events and revelations into bite-sized bullet-pointed or numbered lists that are haphazardly topped by staggeringly boring titles to pull them together in a sensible way.

And so I'll start:

Tea is the best way to end your day

Today was Iris' farewell party! Jso told me she was going, so I told her to take me with her and then Isaac texts me saying "I'm picking you up at 11:45" without even a "hey" or a "long time no talk." LOL. so after a few arguments about our lack of contact (WOW I just realized this was the start of an entire day of him not communicating properly- see, this is why I need to write things down. it helps me organize my ideas for future reference), he picked me up and after scooping Jso up we went to NoHo! Hah. Man, it's such a weird thing visiting your high school. It's funny because I'm always so excited to see my old teachers, but I was NOT even a good student! yet they seem relatively happy to see me, too... makes me kinda sad I wasn't a better student for them, but... I don't think I could have really changed anything. It was just a phase I had to go through and learn from. but I really do appreciate them for their efforts and dedication. they're an awesome group of people, and I'm sad some retired and moved away from the HGM.

Happy 21st, Sol!!!

I hate it when I have dreams where I'm having an awesome time with people I've lost that magic with now. I'm always deceived into thinking everything's been fixed and I'm so happy, but then I wake up and reality snaps back, laughing at my gullibility.
...
Today is Sol's 21st Birthday! :]
We're gonna go to this cute Italian cafe on LaBrea for brunch~ ^^
I kinda want Thai food, too... hehe. I actually had Thai food yesterday for dinner with my brothers, but ... the place I went to just gave HUGE servings and wasn't as flavorful as I like my Thai food to be! probably cuz the owner was Korean. haha...

S S S

Today after church, Silvia, Sol and I went to go get some Jjajangmyun at that new mall in Koreatown... shit I forgot the name... something with a Z... ANYWAY, it's that place with Red Mango + Face Shop. hehe. We got a jengban (platter) size and shared it. :). Then we bought some boonguhbbang ice cream (fish shaped red bean waffle ice cream)

at the market downstairs and made a quick stop at my place to get some money from my mother (-____-... i spent too much $$$ from my debit card on my hair...) and then went to Beverly Center to shop~! Dude, I forgot how fun it was to just do simple things with my friends. good company is truly priceless.

Of Christmas Trees And Infidels

It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories



I feel so unproductive. like I should be doing more work.

It's a weird period because not everyone's back home. so LA feels a little empty.
But it was good seeing some people today~ :) (esp my babygurrrl Silviaaaa)

I think I'm feeling more down because the weather's been dreary~. It's been raining since yesterday and it's supposed to continue for the next two days.
Funny because rainy days in Santa Cruz are so beautiful and invigorating but rainy days in LA just make me depressed and mopey.
Or they make me feel like I should just curl up in bed and read a good book/ watch DVDs but then I feel guilty- like I'm wasting my precious vacation days in LA cooped up. but it's stupid and illogical because I'd have a much more enjoyable time doing those activities indoors than anything else outdoors (under current weather conditions).

Anyhoo, I think I'm going to church tomorrow morning to help decorate the Christmas tree.
dunno how I feel about church. .. still.. so... weird...
It's nearly an intrinsic part of my being yet I'm so emotionally distant from it.
I see my visits back more as family reunions/ obligations. I love the people there and care a lot about the kids, but yeah... sometimes I feel like I need to separate myself more from the kids so as to not influence them into a downward spiral of confusion and depression like I experienced in high school. It's complicated because I don't believe in a lot of the things they're being taught, but I don't think it's in my place to tell them so, and I definitely do see the positive aspects of kids being raised in the church (as long as they're not being indoctrinated with hateful or disrespectful ideas- which are you know, NOT CHRIST-LIKE), so I just try to make small talk and refrain from spouting personal (anti)religious views.



2nd thing I don't know how to break to my dad: I don't want to marry a good little Christian boy to raise a good little Christian family with. sigh...

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this is a mother effing long entry. about my daddy and my baby brother. and kind of about koreans and males in general. and my mom.

I'm hooooome! :)

My dad picked me up from the airport and wooowww TRAFFIC. I'd forgotten what that was like. hahahaa. shit. I landed right when rush hour started!!
We started talking about school, family, etc and we somehow got into the subject of boys. OH right, because he mentioned that my cousin sister just broke off her engagement with her bf/fiance because she didn't want to marry soon and he did (he's 33 and rich and ready to settle down whereas she's 24, one year into law school and wants to wait until graduation - WHOAH DEJA VU right there. fucking pricks... find someone your own age or have some mothereffing patience!! your sperm count aint goin down anytime soon!) and my dad happened to mention that my uncle (his brother) also didn't like that the boy couldn't speak Korean well (even though he's Korean). and I thought... FUCKKKKKKK. mannnn. I don't even know how to begin explaining my lack of desire to marry a Korean boy. like... I love them as friends and I think they're awesome and wish them all the best but ... no sexual attraction = big problem!!! and it's not like I don't think they're good looking. it's just that I view them more with sibling/cousin-like affection than anything. and I sense this familiarity with them almost instantly, so I view them as too ... easy to read and understand (either that or they're fucked up misogynistic, racist assholes with daddy issues). so they don't stand out or pique my interest. and maybe it's because Korean people are really into conformity and succeeding within that narrow realm of what they view as success, but I don't jive with that whole ideal and therefore don't really mesh well with most Korean boys on a romantic level. like... I'm okay being friends with someone who believes in those ideas, but not okay being in a serious/long term/permanent relationship with them.

Daul Kim in Vogue Korea Dec. 2009

Isn't this a gorgeous picture?

(She did a bunch of editorials before she died... probably many more to come...)

찍지말아고~~~!

Dude. Busan accents are hilarious.




Jong Yong-hwa (Shin-woo from "You're Beautiful") during a high school field trip
(He actually had to fix his saturi!! haha, makes Shin-woo's storyline more endearing)

young love

actor who's playing young Dumbledore

actor who's playing young Grindelwald


Who else is excited about this Harry Potter movie??!!!

;)

미남이시네요 Ep. 14

hello cuteness



hello sadness

LeeSsang

love themmm.




I turned in my "spiritual journey" paper for my rel&psych class today. It wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. I couldn't BS it (I'm so insanely bad at making shit up) so I just went through all my high school drama honestly (and filtered it for academic purposes) and BAM- 10 pages! Haha. Anyway, it was slightly therapeutic, too. damn. I guess my teacher wins.

Also, mmm AVOCADOS! Why are you so delicious and prettily colored?

A Single Man

I've been meaning to mention this foreverrrr, but
I reallyyyy want to see this movie.


(this is the unofficial (& slightly better) trailer Tom Ford released before the studio)
Isn't it filthy gorgeous? not to mention angsty as fuck <3 :)

It comes out Dec 11 in NY, LA and SF. (I get back to LA on the 10th!)

Yay, I guess it could be the first movie I watch back home. gonna try to drag my friends with me. hehe. ;]

Anyway, Colin Firth looks so dashing as a gay, middle-aged professor. Who knew? (Of course, being British helps.)
Also, I am pleased to see Matthew Goode looking much better than he did in his last role as Adrian Veidt (Watchmen).
And Julianne Moore is just... Julianne Moore.

Here's what Mr. Ford had to say about it:
"This (film) for me was the first pure artistic expression that I've ever created so in that way it's much more personal to me and I'm more vulnerable in a way because it is so personal."

I'm wishing him a lot of luck! Not that the rich bastard needs it.