bitchfests can be fun

Sex and the City 2 was, as expected, a terrible movie. However, watching it in that theater was a hilarious experience. First of all, we all pre-gamed and brought alcohol with us as well. Second of all, at least half that theater had also pre-gamed and brought some alcohol with them as well. Hahahhahahahaa. It was basically a drunken bitchfest. girls and gay guys yelling at each other and at the screen. hahahaaaa- good times, good times.
Although I hated a lot of things about the movie, I have to say it was a good break from reality and made for fun times, so I appreciate it for the good times it will provide for other ladies (and men).

Anyway, I woke up feeling like shit because I went to bed so late. I think we're hitting the bars tonight. Erica and Miriam want me to experience "80's night" even though they admitted it kinda sucks. hahahahaa. bar-hopping! yay.

The weather this weekend is going to be gorgeousss, so I'm thankful. I feel like our weekend already started, heh. It's like a 5 day weekend! :)

old crush

Pharrell!! I forget how much I love his face until I see it again. He seriously has such beautiful bone structure. and he carries himself so well. so much style and swagger. I love it. hahahahaa.

SATC2

We're going to the opening night showing of Sex and the City 2! Hahaha... I didn't even see the first one because it just didn't seem so good. And this second one seems even MORE terrible. However, Erica and Miriam are wholly excited about it and I got caught up in the fervor. Okay, and I love any excuse to dress up and wear heels. :).
I think we're going to get cosmos at a bar or something and then get in line (we already bought tickets ;)). Hopefully the alcohol will make the movie experience better? I mean, I love all the fashion and fun of Sex and the City, but... I think the movies cheapen the TV show. They are totally unnecessary plot-wise and in terms of character development. I know a lot of women were clamoring for the first movie and its blockbuster success lead to this sequel, but I wish they could've at least made the plot less ludicrous. I'll hold back complete criticism until I watch the damn thing, but really, ladies? Abu Dhabi? hmphh.. The 4 women already scream white female privilege. Did they need to drive that point in even further by partying it up in the middle east?
Whatever. I'm going to just try and enjoy tonight as much as possible, take it for the stupid shallow fun it's supposed to be, and hopefully come out of the theater still tipsy. :]

Why didn't I think of this?

So, this website graded the hotness levels of all the men in Lost, and WHAT?!! WHAT THE HECK IS THIS BULLSHIT?!

http://www.nerve.com/entertainment/2010/05/18/the-men-of-lost?

How DARE they put my dear Keamy at #17?!!  What's wrong with a little "creepy-psycho killer personality", eh?

pshh...  do you know who they put in front of him? LOCKE, MICHAEL, CHARLIE, FARADAY...! hmphh...
Unacceptable!

And come on, Jacob at #11? He's at least #5...

I'm just glad they had the sense to put Desmond on top. I'd say he's a pretty neutral choice. You can't really say anything bad about him. Handsome, earnest, romantic, faithful, Scottish...  a little kooky, but hey, you'd be too if you pressed a button every 108 minutes for 3 years straight AND your consciousness became unstuck in time.

Anyway, I'm having a hard time on the interwebs because I keep having to avoid all Lost spoilers!!!! THey're freakin EVERYWHERE! I have learned to skim and avert! hahaha. I haven't seen the last 2 episodes. or is it last 3 now? hmmm.... I defintely need to catch up before the season finale. eeeeehh!

x

You know that disappointment when you realize the person you thought you liked is a lot more boring and incompatible with you then you hoped for (even against all odds)? Not even in a romantic sense but in any sort of friendly or relational sense.

It's such a rarity to find someone who truly surprises you by showing you a deeper side that exceeds all expectations.
and even rarer when you do put romantic/ sexual interest into the mix.

YES.

Okay, so I renegotiated the length of my cleanse with Erica and Miriam (Erica on speakerphone) and we decided it would okay if I start eating real food starting dinnertime tomorrow! Why?
Well, because we're going to go party and they both admitted it would be wrong for me to not drink, and that it would be wrong for me to not eat before drinking.
Basically, Miriam wanted me to drink and Erica noted that I should eat before I drink. hahahaa.
So Miriam's going to have dinner with her special gentleman friend while Erica and I have dinner at Sabieng and then afterwards we're all going to meet up at Chocolate for dessert (they have amazing Hot Chocolate). Then we'll probably come back home, change, pre-game and then hit up the party. Afterwards we have tentative plans to play drunken Loteria and watch Nacho Libre (and probably eat some Jack in the Crack or something). hehe. Oh, FOOD, how I LONG FOR THEE!! :)
We've already planned out our food adventures for next week! I love my food-appreciating friendssssss! <3

Day 4 and I feel sooooo antsy!!! I really want to eat some real fooooooood!!! I don't know if I can make it... Hmm......... Fruits get boring real quickly! Gahhhhhh...

NO, I CAN DO IT!!!!! YES I CAN!! T-T. How do people do this shit?! Damnn... I am too much of a foodie... Is it so wrong to have an emotional attachment to food?? I've been questioning myself so much. Grrr.... I just need to fight it. the temptation. But it's hard to do when i love it so much. I don't even want to be all "food is evil. do not touch" because I don't feel right doing that. Food is wonderful. Food is marvelous. It makes my world go 'round! Anyway, this post is me just expressing wayward thoughts so I can get it out of my system.

Kamaljit Singh Jhooti

Jay Sean used to be hella cute! I like how he looked kinda scrappy. This was when he was doing his Bhangra Hip-Hop R&B thing in the UK many years ago. I love some of his old songs because they blend so many kinds of music together. But some of them are straight up boy-band-esque whiny ballads... which can get boring real quickly.

His American debut is a lot more strictly R&B / Hip Hop, and he has changed physically to better fit that image. I guess you can also attribute it to him getting older?



He's still good looking, but ... err... he looks too slick and buff. and a little douchey. like he takes himself too seriously? hahaha.

But I actually like this song! and I like that he uses Indian girls in his music videos.

MCF

Day 2 and I'm feeling good. I think last week's 2.5 day cleanse actually helped prep me for this longer one. I definitely don't have as many cravings and my appetite has shrunk. It's amazing how adaptable our bodies are. Most of it is mental, and for some reason, I've been doing really well on that part. Howeverrrr, I'm really sad because this Saturday is Multicultural Festival, and I've been excited about attending it for ages! The best part about it is all the different foods that the student groups here sell. But I really don't want to give up after 5 days. I think I'm still going- I'll just have to be super disciplined! I'll take in the smells and pretend I'm eating all the delicious food while I munch on some fruit... :).

still learning

Soooo I had such a great time in Palo Alto! I reallllyyyy needed it. the break from reality and having lots of frivolous fun! It was pretty much a mini-vacation. sighhh. It was also the first time in years where I really felt my old self coming out and I was actually okay with it? It made me realize how much more reserved and self-conscious I had become since graduating high school. It's become almost natural for me to consider the repercussions of every action I make. It's made me so much more cautious and critical and now that I think about it, it has really stifled a lot of my relationships with people.
Being with Deborah brought out my spontaneous, energetic, playful side because I felt as though I could just be however I wanted to be without anyone judging me. Because she's known me for so long, I can say or do whatever I want without having to explain myself or anything else. It's not that I haven't been carefree and open for years, I just hadn't really mixed it within a school setting in a really long time because I hadn't felt comfortable enough.
It was so much fun dancing my heart out and yelling lyrics to popular songs with my friends/ the crowd. I was so in the zone! I forgot how much I used to enjoy it and how cathartic/therapeutic it could be. I guess I didn't even realize how much I'd really been limiting myself. or as Erica bluntly told me, how much of a wall I'd put up around me. It was also fun being a little mischievous and teasing a few boys here and there. :)
So I've unexpectedly learned a lot from this trip. I am going to let myself be more spontaneous, let myself be in new situations without preparing for the worst, let myself be more emotionally open without thinking that it's going to come and bite me in the ass, and most importantly for now, I'm going to try to have the most kick-ass time in my last month in college. I'm not going to let a day pass without having felt like I fulfilled something important- whether it be academic or social.
Today, Miriam, Erica and I are starting our 7-10 day fruit cleanse!
I totally had to give it up during the weekend but I am ready to get back on it! We've stocked up on fruit and are ready to conquer! yes! :)

Music Bank - NU ABO

Yes! Their performance was wayy better than their mv! They weren't perfect, but they definitely brought it! Especially Luna! damn, the girl can hold a high note! I was very satisfied with her part at the end. Also, I like that I've come to expect them to give good, clean performances and that they meet that expectation. When groups have tight choreography, it shows how much time and effort they've spent together on it, and it makes me feel that they really deserve to be on that stage.

I am not feeling Amber's bowlcut... it reminds me of Key's lopsided bowlcut from SHINee's Ring Ding Dong promotions. (which is funny because they're like sibling bands. and which is unfortunate because that haircut was fugz.)
Sulli looks so much more interesting with that blonde wig!
It's like Daryl Hannah in Blade Runner meets Sailor Mercury. which can only be good.

Heh.

Krystal definitely catches my eye. She is so pretty in this cold, statuesque way, and she just seems so confident and self-assured. Even with that ridiculous haircut and outfit she manages to have this certain grace and cutting femininity about her. I seriously can't believe she's only 15 years old. It makes me feel so... inadequate. hahaha, i'm envious of a 15 year old! ;)

Btw- day 3 of the fruit cleanse and I haven't felt like murdering anyone yet! hmmm, my body is responding to this much better than I expected... I'm like just waiting for horrible cravings to hit me any moment, though. It can't be this easy!

Anyway, I'm gonna take a shower and then Erica and I are off to Palo Alto!! Yayyy fun weekend where I will ignore all the work I'll have to do once I get back!!! :D

NU ABO

Day 2 of the fruit cleanse, and I'm feeling a little weak. But that might also be because I only slept a few hours and only had a handful of grapes for breakfast (oh my, I almost spelled that "breakfust"). I think I'm going to go eat a banana. But I'm waiting for my nail polish to dry on my toes! hahaha- yes, I like to paint my nails while writing papers.

Oh yeah, F(x)'s NU ABO mv was released last night, and it's... OK. I was expecting better.



I wish they had incorporated better/ more challenging choreography since they are supposed to be a dance group, but I'll hold out final judgement until their live performances.
Something about the music video was lackluster to me, but I can't really place it. I remember thinking I really liked their previous music videos. Maybe this one was too predictable? Hmm, I think I expected it to be edgier. I always enjoy the visual aspect of the mvs, though. The colors are always so vivid and pretty. I also enjoy the kitschy looking sets the girls seem to reside in in all their videos. They're like storybook characters in a pop-up book.

Btw, NU stands for New and ABO stands for the different blood types. So they're saying they are "New Blood." Blood type is regarded as an important part of determining people's characteristics in some Asian cultures, much like astrological signs.

The NEWS boys call out the different stereotypes of each blood type.

"HEY A

A methodical believer
HEY B
A 'my pace' group boss
Our fortunes say we’re not compatible
Surely we can work it out
HEY O
A romanticist leader
AB
A tsundere producer
Everyone has their strong points and weak points
Is this really real?"

Ah, my cute Ryo! I haven't seen your face in so long! You're an O? Well, I'm an AB (I think). I think we can work it out.

"Drive out the Japanese dwarfs and the Western Barbarians, and praise righteousness."

Hehe. I opened Bruce Cumings' Korea's Place in the Sun and that was the first quote I read. Ah, I remember studying the Tonghak Rebellion (that was their slogan)! Fun times.
I'm writing my thesis right now. and I'm feeling blegh. no facebook. no real food. sadness. I meannnn oh, JOY!

Oh, and I was on a kpop blog and it reported that Stanford was hosting a pre-screening to the new Korean war movie starring Kwon Sangwoo and TOP (and that the director and Kwon Sangwoo would be there- sadly, no TOP). So I clicked on the link and apparently it's part of a series commemorating the 60 year anniversary of the Korean War hosted by the Korean studies program.

first few thought when I scanned the page:
1. They have an entire Korean studies program?!
2. They can bring highly renowned foreign celebrities to promote their movies based on academic reasons?!
3. WHAT! BRUCE CUMINGS is coming to talk about the Korean war on May 28?!! holy shit, dude. I am holding his book in my lap right nowww! He is one of the premier historians of modern Korean history in the United States! So much that I didn't even buy this book for school- I found it at home because my dad bought it for leisure reading (ok, so my dad is a big-time nerd). Imagine how excited my dad would be about this man, too? I WANT TO SEE HIM.
Unfortunately, his talk is at noon and I end class at 10:40 and I don't have a car. and I doubt anyone I know who has a car would be willing to go all the way to Palo Alto to hear a history lecture. *tear.
These are times when I feel incredibly dejected about the fact that schools like STANFORD really make it worth your time and money. and that I don't drive.

Anyway, I should probably get back to my paperrr! joy.

Fruity goodness!

Last night was a failure. My brownies were too thick so in order to cook all the way, the bottom got a little burnt. and the chocolate bar I used was too bitter and overpowered the peanut butter + cocoa powder. it was just suchhhhh a failure. I threw the whole thing away. after i smashed a part of it in petulant anger. 

The roommates and I ate Shin Ramen, though, which made me feel a whole lot better. :)

On that note, I was thinking about my relationship to food. I've become too emotionally attached to food and that has allowed me to basically drug myself to happy feelings, which is really bad for my body. I would love to become that great cook or baker who is always making delicious foods for myself and other people and spreading a little bit of joy that way, but I would also like to be someone who is at her optimal level of health and energy and promotes that style of living as well.

So I've decided to do a fruit cleanse for 7- 10 days. I started just eating fruits this morning, but I'll probably give it up in Stanford (too complicated when I'm not home + cleanse means no alcohol... ) and then restart on Monday. I know the first 3 days are the most difficult (the last time I tried this, I gave up on day 3...) but I heard that after the third or fourth day is when you start feeling the positive effects of the cleanse. If I make it to day 10 and am still feeling good, I might extend it to as long as possible. But I might start taking in some other raw foods like raw nuts and vegetables as well. This one great website I found recommended that I actually drink two glasses of fresh vegetable juice per day with a tablespoon of flax oil in each along with the fruit cleanse. I think I might just get some of the fresh juices from Trader Joe's. I'm not sure about the flax oil, but I'll visit the New Leaf market and check it out.
Miriam and Erica are going to start the cleanse with me on Monday, too, so we're probably going to do a Costco run to get some fruits. and I'll probably stock up on some Odwalla as well. :) I might try the nasty looking green Superfood that Dominic has been praising...


I think this is a really good way to fix my body and mind of its cravings and try to start over.
Hopefully it will lead me to healthier daily eating habits. I'm also going to try my best to avoid processed foods.
I'm not going to be all anal and refuse to eat certain things when I'm out with people, but just in my own home for everyday consumption, I'll be more conscious.

Also, this song is stuck in my head!! "milku shake, milku shake. ice kreem, ice kreem." hahaha


I'm excited for their comeback! I actually like their single, NU ABO, a lot. There are some parts I can do without but overall I think they pull it off well. Anyway, their songs are always elevated by the visual aspect of their performances, so I'm holding out for their music video and music core performance.
I like their Asianified hipster image (because the annoying aspects of hipsterdom are offset by their lack of whiteness, if you know what I mean. if you don't, ...how do you know me again?). I like f(x) because they're less obviously slick and prettified. Their style and charisma don't pander to the male audience, which is refreshing. That's why I like 2NE1, too. They're just like -BAM- yeah, we're girls, we're pretty, we're talented, and you probably think we'd be cuter in different clothes but bitches, we don't give a fuck! :) I mean, I know their images are all carefully crafted for commercially beneficial reasons, but the idea they're selling is still still important, you know?  And I have a much more natural affiliation towards (and would therefore much rather support) a diluted girl power image over an image that promotes the prioritization of the male gaze (i.e. SNSD, Kara, After School).



The mv will be released tonight (May 6 in Korea).  I hope it's good!!

btw, how effing awkward is Miley Cyrus' new music video?! so embarrassing. She does not do good sexyface.

the oven possesses my soul

I need to use up all the sugar and flour I bought last quarter. I also have a bunch of peanut butter, cocoa powder and dark chocolate bars. and some eggs that are almost reaching their expiration date.

most logical course of action?

Peanut butter brownie time!

Yes, I'm giving myself an excuse to procrastinate some more. :). No facebook= more cooking/baking! academic failllll.


I'm going to Stanford to visit Deborah on Friday. and Erica will be my traveling companion! I've been feeling this urge to travel. to leave everything behind and explore new places, meet new people, learn new things. So during this trip I'm gonna pretend I'm on a journey to somewhere far and fantastic. I'll make up pretend things to do and pretend things to wear and think of the imaginary people I'll meet and the imaginary things I'll see. It should be quite lovely.

China-centric

Amazing! 24 Different Design Options in One Tiny Apartment.



And this article is really interesting:

Shanghai Is Trying to Untangle the Mangled English of Chinglish

My favorite part: "...although some Chinglish phrases sound awkward to Western ears, they can be refreshingly lyrical... He offered the following example: While park signs in the West exhort people to “Keep Off the Grass,” Chinese versions tend to anthropomorphize nature as a way to gently engage the stomping masses. Hence, such admonishments as “The Little Grass Is Sleeping. Please Don’t Disturb It” or “Don’t Hurt Me. I Am Afraid of Pain.”"


So cute!

Ktown Cowboys

This shit is hilarious! Part of this embarrasses me and part of this makes me miss home.

Basically, they capture Koreatown perfectly... (through a limited viewpoint, of course)

I think I figured out my greatest fear! But it's a secret. sorry! I just wanted to write it down.

Casualties of fun

 

 

Today's a beautiful day, though. Doesn't it look gorgeous?

I'm gonna miss our balcony so much...

Oh yeah, I tried making fettucine alfredo for lunch. It was okay.  Nothing spectacular.

Now, I'm going to try being a good student. Wish me tons of luck, please!